Throne Trip Tuesdays - 1/19/10

Welcome to Throne Trip Tuesdays. This is the day each week when I share with you what I have learned, what I am learning, or what I am re-learning while visiting with God. Oh yes, the re-learning those are the toughest for me. Take for instance the lesson of trusting God and that He will never leave nor forsake me. You can read more about that here.But how did these fears come about?

My trust and fear issues are directly related to my mom. My biological mom.The one who abandoned me a long time ago and the one who knows practically nothing about me or my life now. There will be a trigger and suddenly a memory flashes across the screen of my mind.

I don't have very many memories of her as a child prior to her leaving. And the ones I do have aren't that great. If I let my mind dwell on the gaping hole she left in my heart, I get sad even to this day.

God has been so good to help me see that I am not the child of a broken parent any longer- that I am a child of God. I am loved. I am treasured. I am wanted. But I can tell you, it has been a long and arduous journey. One that continues to this day. Sometimes those nagging thoughts creep back into the crevices of my heart and I start wondering all over again: why didn't my mom love me? or if my mom didn't love me how could anyone else?

I don't share this with you so you will feel sorry for me. It is because of those experiences that I am a strong, resilient woman. I tell you this to show that no matter what your circumstance God can reach down and heal you; He can scoop you up in His arms and comfort you; He can and He does.

Is there an area in your life that needs healing? God desires to meet you there and comfort you today, This Day. Just reach out and take His hand.....He is waiting for you.

Peace and Joy,
Susan

Deuteronomy 31:6 (NKJV) ⁶ Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”