Friday, February 25, 2011

Friday Confessional


Because I feel like I need to. Fess up.

I Confess: This past week or so I have been out of sorts. In a funk. Not feeling myself. Can you relate? I can't really put my finger on the cause. I wouldn't say that I'm unhappy. But I can't say that I'm happy either. With myself.

I Confess: Can I be real? Because sometimes I don't think I am. Real. With you. Oh, I'm real about my faith. And my life in general. But I'm not so real with my heart. I don't like to be real with my heart. It makes me vulnerable. Exposed. I like to feel safe. When I open up, I don't feel safe. My heart is damaged. There are gaping holes. Scars. Chunks missing.

I Confess: That I don't like what age is doing to me. To my body. It's laughable really. It's inevitable. Seriously. It's very difficult to grow old. Yet, it is an honor to grow old. 

I Confess: That I am a little more than envious of other bloggers. You women are creative. Talented. Have such a flair for words. Gorgeous blogs.

I Confess: I want more. I want to be more. I want my photography to be creative. Worthy to bring glory and honor to God.

I Confess: I want your help. I'm going to be holding a contest. Get your creative thinking caps on. I'm looking for a name. Not just any name. A name for my photography. A label. An icon.

I Confess: I already feel better.

Thank you so much for listening to my confessions. More on the contest coming soon.

Peace and Joy,

Matthew 22:37-39 (NKJV) 37 Jesus said to him, “ ‘You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ 38 This is the first and great commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’


Mary said...

Getting older does really stink, doesn't it? Your blog is absolutely beautiful; truly an inspiration to someone who has only been blogging for a year!
Have a good weekend!

Joyce said...

I love your blog : )

And yes, growing old stinks but I'm still trying to do it gracefully.

Enjoy your weekend!

jennykate77 said...

I can totally relate to the funk. I'm not sure what's up, but I have felt outta sorts lately. I've gotta shake it off. Hopefully the weekend will do us some good?!

Aging is NOT fun! I'm not ready for wrikles and the fact that I HAVE to dye my hair. I remember the good ol' days when I dyed my hair for the fun of it's a necessity!

Hope you have a good weekend!

H-Mama said...

Love your blog, your photos, and find myself quite jealous of your workouts. Even in under a mile, you have managed to get in more than me. ;) I'm not liking what growing older is doing to this ol' body either. So unfair. *sigh* But I think you look great, my friend. (((hugehugs)))

Lea also known as "CiCi" said...

I think we all get in a non-descript funk at times. Can't really explain it.

Oh, and aging is definitely not for sissies. I cannot believe that I'm staring 60 in the face, but as you said, what an honor.

Hope you have a wonderful weekend!

Lori said...

Your blog is great and don't let yourself tell you any different lady! But I know what you mean. We can certainly convince ourselves how much better everyone else is. I love what you've been doing. Keep up the great blogging!

Pam said...

I'm pretty sure I'm older than you. Does that make you feel better?!

And I love your blog.